A Resolution I Can Keep

A couple of years ago I was really struggling with a mix of changing hormones and a glass-nearly-empty kind of thinking. I allowed turning 40 to be a burden rather than a time to celebrate. Whenever frustration or disappointment crept in my soul, I foolishly gave it a place to hibernate. The heaviness sat there … Continue reading A Resolution I Can Keep

Writer’s Workshop: Finding Joy in My Winter

Believe it or not, avoiding this blog has been as impossible as avoiding myself.Not a word has been written for months. I've purposely found other things to do than write and yet, this blog has been on my mind, in my heart, every day. It was not my intention to disappear, but the longer the … Continue reading Writer’s Workshop: Finding Joy in My Winter

I’m feeling odd and uneven

"August rain: the best of the summer gone, and the new fall not yet born. The odd uneven time."  (Sylvia Plath) I've been avoiding medical advice. DW is anti-doctor and  my familiar doctor is at least half an hour away. Six years ago, she was close. It felt like cheating to change doctors after ten … Continue reading I’m feeling odd and uneven

Sometimes I purposely make messes to clean up messes

DW walked into our downstairs office a couple of weeks ago and unexpectedly found me rearranging furniture, bookshelves, and supplies. Again. "There is something seriously wrong with you," he said without a smirk, climbing over the piles of debris and around misplaced furniture, "it's like you have an illness or something." I have a plan, … Continue reading Sometimes I purposely make messes to clean up messes

Five Minute Friday: View

I stand too far away. I linger in doorways, overwhelmed by the mess. Closing my eyes, I try to picture one thing at a time and listen for someone else's voice. Listen for solace. But I am still fearful to enter, panicked where to start. Conversations merge, translations are lost and I am left with … Continue reading Five Minute Friday: View