Life, as a whole, repeats itself. Sometimes the pattern is familiar and strong. Sometimes it is familiar and draining. I have often hidden in the false safety of doing nothing because of the fear of change. Keep everything the same. Do what you know. Do what is comfortable. Even when it is painful, because there is comfort in knowing current disappointment rather than the unknown possibility of more pain and disappointment. Surround myself with relationships that perpetuate the same persistent rhythm. It is familiar.
Until, of course, you are forced to make a change.
Forced to change your course, creating a new rhythm.
A new pattern.
A new perspective about relationships and about myself. Finding a desire to stop wanting to be someone else, and instead just be a better version of myself.
Friendships, good friendships, the ones that draw you out of your shell can do that. The relationships that make you feel important and strong. The relationships that make you want to help others feel important and strong. Those are essential. Conversations unencumbered and genuine. There is no small talk. Everything is raw and emotion filled.
Laughter and tears.
Words flow as easily as breathing. Bonds strengthened by life experiences both shared and created together. Like a good song that sticks in your head, randomly echoing in your ears when you least expect, you can’t get those relationships out of your heart.
You find yourself feeling encouraged even in their absence.