I am a perfectionist. I designed and re-designed this blog a dozen times already since I started it last week. I have posted and unposted numerous first entries. That is how I have lived most of my life – seeking perfection. Unfortunately, as we all know, that is impossible. It is a confusing contradiction walking into a perfectionist’s existence. We are surrounded by controlled chaos. Target can’t possibly have more clear bins, baskets and organizational storage than my house. Hooks line the walls of the mud-room for coats, soccer bags, gymnastics bags, school bags and then there is the shoe rack for each member of the house, the closet has a stackable tower of drawers labeled for hats, scarves and mittens…and yet, the craft room looks like Michael’s and JoAnn’s just exploded in there. I have NOT started cleaning it up from our last project because I just don’t think I have the time to make it look perfect.
That is how I have approached (or not approached, depending on how you look at it) my writing too…I just don’t start when I don’t think I can make it perfect. However, I am currently reading Sink Reflections by Marla Cilley because, of course, I constantly read books or articles on how to be a PERFECT organizer! However, there is value in her words. Her first chapter is about baby steps and where to begin:
1. First Babystep – shine your sink
2. Second Babystep – get dressed and put on laced up shoes
3. Third Babystep – fix your hair and face
4. Fourth Babystep – pick out your clothes for tomorrow
5. Fifth Babystep – get plenty of rest
All very doable common sense things, I would say, but somehow have been harder and harder to achieve since I quit my job. Since I don’t have a real schedule any more I am just floundering with my time and ironically feel more and more out of control and unavailable! But today is my first babystep. Just get started – write something. (And then maybe hit the craft room…after I shine the sink.)
What babystep do you need to take today?